So
one of the things that I am learning is being truly content with my
body... Being content that I am beautiful, and that the few extra pounds
I have on is okay. To say the words and accepting them are two totally
different things. If you are a woman, AND a Momma- you can relate. We
gain those "pregnancy pounds" and unfortunately they don't fall off as
quickly as they were gained. Sometimes I look in the mirror, and wish
there was a magic pill that I could take and I can have my pre-preggo
body back!! I look at my 'fat jeans', and want to believe that tomorrow I
can pack them away... BUT that will not happen, those thoughts are
wishes, and not reality. Now when reality sets in, I need to make sure
that I can be okay with it. I need to be okay that I have extra weight,
and remind myself that I had a baby only 3 months ago!!
Reality
is I am not defined by my body. I am not accepted by my weight, or how
much body fat I have (thank god!!). My best friend is not my friend
because I wore a size 2 before I became pregnant, and decided to NOT be
my Bestie now that I am a size... well, lets just say I'm not a 2
anymore haha. And the man of my dreams STILL loves me, no matter if I
have love handles or a flat tummy.
Now
the hard part is ME accepting ME, for who I am. I need to look in the
mirror and see that I am a beautiful LOVER. I am a loyal FRIEND, and I
am a loving MOMMA!! God has created me in HIS image, and that image is
amazing. I am a beautiful woman, not because I wear a certain size, or
have nice legs, but because of my heart. Because I look in the mirror
and decide that I am beautifully, and wonderfully made:)
I
can have confidence because I choose to have it... I also have
confidence because I have amazing friends, family, and a loving,
compassionate man that let me know I am beautiful and loved! Now don't
get me wrong- I am working to lose the weight I gained, but I will be
okay that its not going to come off over night. I will NOT beat myself
up because Robby doesn't have his smoking hot skinny Ash by his side in a
size SO much smaller than I am now haha!
So
I encourage you Mommas out there that are not the size you were once
upon a time, and may be feeling that yucky self esteem killer... to look
at yourself and feel beautiful because you are the one that your
children look to for comfort and love. That you are attractive and
beautiful because of your heart, and personality. Because you are a
faithful lover, and constant friend:)
